Three weeks ago I was told I needed to set up appointments for my follow up scans, blood work and my doctors' visit. I just now got around to doing it cuz quite honestly after going through chemo, the last thing I want is another doctor's visit or any thing that could lead to bad news. Nonetheless, I know that vigilance has been part of my success with dealing with cancer, so I made the appointments because I know they are the best thing for me. Sometimes I have to separate my intellectual thinking from my emotional thinking -- intellectual leads to better outcomes.:-)
My energy level has really rebounded. An afternoon nap is nice, but it doesn't seem as necessary as it used to. I gladly shoveled our very long driveway when it snowed, I've been doing chores around the house, I've been staying up past my son's bedtime, and my client work is back in full swing -- feels great and unusually "normal"!
While it is not brush worthy yet, my hair has started to grow back. I use a magnifying mirror to monitor. Until the mane is ready for prime time, I will continue to wear my wigs. I had to buy two more because I realized that I was bored with the same hair do. Nothing like having hair you can't style the way you want! I now have 4 different styles which I'm very happy about.
The first encounter is always the hardest...I'd prefer it if people would relax and treat me like they've always treated me. I think chemo and cancer makes people, who don't have it or haven't had to deal with it, very uncomfortable. When I see the uneasiness, I try to break the ice by "showing" people how "normal" I am despite the cancer and its associated treatments. Cancer doesn't have to be the topic of every conversation. In fact, I'd prefer to talk about other things.
In a few days I will head off on my long awaited vacation. My sister will care for our 3 year old. I will experience the zest of life and new things like parasailing, rappelling and will love up my husband who has been a rock for me. I am very thankful and feel blessed to have this life of mine!
